chorus:
but i'll be, right here til the end
even though you see me only as a friend
and i don't.. i don't know what to do
cause all i want to see is me and you.. together


parang tabs to sa chorus:

prechorus:
everything is nothing when you are not here
my happiness will fade but i'll still be sincere
and in the times of trouble when your eyes gush out a tear
you know i will protect you from the lies you came to fear



Verse 1:
i look at you and i see all
the things that i could do just to get you
you glance at me but you can't see
the man that i could be

(tapos prechorus then chorus)

Verse 2:
every chance i get to be with you
i can't speak but i wanna be true to you
and every moment left unspoken
does it really matter?

(prechorus ulit tas chorus)



bridge:(same chords sa prechorus)
and i know.. you won't see, you won't ever tell me
still i go holding on to silly things that i know i don't have a chance

I was doing the same routines I have in my life every night. Sitting on the couch, watching television, with my phone placed on the coffee table, waiting ‘til it vibrates, but I’m not actually expecting any text coming from anybody.

Then suddenly, SHOOT! A turning point in my life actually came rushing forward. Marck, a friend and a class mate of mine texted. Didn’t expect his text would wow me away. He was asking if I could load up my smart sim since I have two phones; one smart and the other one’s globe. I said I can’t because it’s too late for that matter now. Without any hesitations, he went direct to the point of what was he up to.

“Can I court you?”

His words, left out in the mist, leaving me with a shocked facial expression. This guy, admittedly the first time I knew him I admired him for being such a gentleman, a cute and nice guy and if you probably would want to meet a boy-next-door type and the mr. right guy, he could be the one for you.

Apparently I just admire him but with the emotional feeling whatsoever towards him? That I’m not really into. Actually I I say I have a crush on him, I have tons of crushes and when I say “crush” I really just mean crush, no overrating with it at all.

Once when he became my dance partner for our p.e I was kinda thinking what would it be like if he was my boyfriend. Maybe I’m just thinking about it out of nowhere. And the fact that HE WAS THE EX OF ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS WHO APPRENTLY I THINK IS STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM I pull myself back. Now what do I do?this guy’s one of the most admired guy in our class and I thought maybe if he courts me I would say yes I’ll be his girl. But now that it actually bumped my one lazy night, I found myself thinking about it twice or thrice as I could.

I knew of a friendship rule before. If your friend’s ex courts you, refuse!! And I would always give that kinda advice. But now I seem to not practice what I preach. Granted that I like him but how about my friendship with her? I feel as if I’m into some phony sin. I feel as if I’m betraying and maybe I’m about to break someone’s heart and trust for me just because I want to make myself happy.

I was feeling aglow, and I just said I’m happy with my single life. I also told god to give me the guy I deserve soon, but I didn’t mean this soon. Everything happened just too fast. In a blink of an eye,  things could turn 360 degrees.

Is this about friendship over my own desires? If I’m to choose I’d stick with friendship since I’m this girl who loves her friends more than her boyfriend. And I know I’m not really that faithful with a guy. The longest relationship I’ve been to was 5 long months, the shortest was 2 days.

I don’t know. But if ever we became “we” then I think this blog would be the only place where I could admit my screaming infidelities. Dang it, of all the girls why me? I didn’t really imagine things could turn out this way..

well, yesterday i was like thinking there's nothing new again and nothing to blab about with my life. but since, oh well i remembered something "kilig"(if my word was right) happened to me i decided to post it anyway.

vacant time, at school around 10:30 am after my java subject, we went out to grab some snack over a fastfood named jolibee. well, apparently, i have a crush on one of their crews since wednesday, well most of us do. that's why we ate there, just to take a glimpse of him. we were right! he was there, mopping the floor and said good morning to us. for all you know, he wasn't very handsome, he's just cute and what got us was his tender loving eyes, like when he looks at you, you'll see some stars all over the place, and i'm just speaking hypothetically of course.*giggles*

well, to make the story short, what made me really "kilig" or shiver was when i was looking at him from afar when i think one of the crew whom he was talking to said that i was looking at him like hell. and then he looked at me and smiled his sweetest smile.. wow there!! and i was so shy that i looked away and pretended like i wasn't looking at him or whatever. then when we went away to go back to the school tmy friends waved goobye to the two male crew and he was the third crew and i didn't say buhbye at all, i was walking away fastly and then for some stupid reasons that even i don't know, i looked back only to see him, and he apparently looked at me TOO!! like wow, when i turned back, i reacted and said wow!! he looked at me!!

that's basically what made my day seemed like glowing*jumps around for joy* alright, extreme joy^^

i love it!! whoa whoa whoa

Summer wind, summer rain drops,

And everything smells like rain,

Feel the air, smell the aroma of the crops,

And here I am, still in unfathomable vain,

Summer rain drops, living phantasm,

But now it’s melancholy,

The last season I’m in enthusiasm,

This season makes me gloomy,

Your hands, still linger on mine,

And I was holding it this tight,

Now it doesn’t make me fine,

I can still remember it at night,

The love I feel for you,

Changes me in every angle,

So much that I feel blue,

You, I’ve lost my angel

The leaf travels through the running river,

Wonder if it would reach you,

Or would it take forever

I will still see you through,

I’ve stared at the sweetest eyes,

Why was it so hypothetical?

My heart, now coated with ice,

For the past was so magical,

Dawn approaches, says it’s winter,

Suddenly my tears stream down,

Was it because I shiver?

Or because I feel down?

My eyes are now covered with my hair,

So I could pretend I don’t see I cry,

This is not fair,

Forgetting you is what I always try,

At one point I was happy

With you by my side,

At the reality I am gloomy

This I cannot hide,

Summer wind, summer rain drop,

The rhythm of your breathing echoes,

Now I’m in deep crap,

The memories are what I see as my eyes close